Home Is My Sanity.

The Home on the Range

I began to have withdrawals from being away from this place for almost 6 months. 

Beautiful Home. Beautiful Family. Beautiful Life

It's very hard to believe that I have already been home here in Nebraska for almost a week. The time has gone by so fast seeming like a constant blur. The days are beginning to mesh together. I frequently forget what I did or even wore just yesterday. Thankfully my sister's high school graduation went well and had a good turn out. Now hopefully the days will begin to slow down.

Today in church I got asked to lead the congregation in the service hymns. Tomorrow starts a new week, new planning, and hopefully a few weeks this summer will be filled up with some rodeos and music opportunities. I am very excited and anxious to see what the Lord has in store over these next few months.


God Bless

Just Breathe

The last few days have been a blur. Second year of college is already recorded in the books and summer break is here! This past school year, I have been blessed with many wonderful opportunities, experiences, and the greatest friends. Although it's bittersweet leaving Music City, great things are in store this summer back in the "Good Life." I am ready to see what God has in store for me this summer. He has already opened a few doors. At the end of May and beginning of June, I will a camp counselor and will also be helping with worship services at a local rodeo bible camp. I will also be working very close with two pastors who have a background on the Christian focus of rodeo. Here's to the summer, let it begin!!

Fear is Loud! Jan. 14, 2013

“FEAR IS LOUD”

Only in the quietest silence, the moments of stillness, and the acts of non-goal oriented are there fears of “What if’s.” I’ve only dreamt have having a professional career since I was nearly 5. Today I’m at Belmont University in Nashville, TN, music city, studying and surrounded by music. All I’ve ever wanted is right here in front of me. So what is now that is holding me back from pursing what I’ve always dreamed of? Is it Home? Family? A relationship? Fear of job opportunities? Fear of going all the way and making it big? In reality, I want this more than anything. one and a half years have already gone by too fast, and one is completely underway and catching speed as I write. Before long, graduation time will be here and…. REAL LIFE starts. Am I ready? Do I even have to be. Decisions. Decisions….

Is it home? Where family resides, where I can easily get away and find a peace of mind. Where a long line of memories where made. Where I want to raise a family.

Is it family? The people who have supported me through all my life decisions. Even through the decision of moving 1,000 miles away to chase my dream. The people who have held me up when I’ve been down. The people I want to be around.

A relationship? The man I fell completely in love. The man that I just can’t get enough of. The man who brings happiness and joy in my life. The man that I could see myself spending forever with. The man that I gave myself to. But are his dreams and plans complementary to mine? Should I let that get in my way of chasing my own dreams? If I choose to follow mine would he stay with me?

Fear of Job opportunities? Dream job out of college…yeah that rarely happens. Will I get my dream job? Am I ready to find out!?

Making it big? Is it the lights, the fame, the fortune. Or is it a combination of everything that makes this my excuse of not trying?

The time is NOW. truth is I only think of this all the time because Fear is LOUD!!! Real Loud. So loud that its time to step back and let the power of Christ come through.