"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God." John 1:1

Today I found myself sitting on the edge of my bed thinking, "Everything is going by so fast. The days go by like minutes." As I close my eyes, the only sound I hear is the second hand of the distant clock. I could shut the door to avoid the distraction, but in reality its only a reminder that if I don't get up and start on today's agenda, I could put myself five minutes behind. And truth is, the way the world turns today I can't even buy five minutes for myself.

Late to bed, early to rise. It's a daily routine. Sometimes I just wish I could freeze time and take a deep breath and appreciate everything that I have encountered and accomplished in a full day. With the way the wheel of the world is turning, it isn't ever going to slow down. And this is where I find myself actively struggling, accepting the fast-pace race we call life.

Now that school is nearly a month in, classes are getting tougher, tests are beginning to emerge, and track and field practice is completely underway. Most days I wake up before the sun, just to try and find a peace of mind, and go to bed after the sun has set. Thus leaving the only time to enjoy the sun is at the  track running workouts and passing between classes. Somedays I wish I could spare just ten minutes to try and look towards a future, find and internship, job ideas after college, or play music. (Because the reality of the real world is going to hit in a year.) Not being able to set aside time to look ahead in these areas casts a shadow of fear in front of me on my path, and somedays this shadow intimidates me to a point of wondering if I'm doing this right. Am if I'm doing this the way God planned?

After sitting on my bed for a while, secretly wiped the tears that were starting to fall. I couldn't let anyone walk in on me and see me like this. I'm suppose to be the strong one, the one who everyone knows that all I do is think about a future, the one who is brave enough to push through. I then leaned over and grabbed the bible laying on my night stand and read the highlighted verses of John 1:1-14.

John 1:4-5 reads "In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it." The birth of Jesus becomes the light in all of us. The light of Jesus drives out fear in ways we can't understand. Jesus's life pushes out fear and illuminates the path to drive fear out.

John 1:12-13 reads "Yet all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God -- children born not of natural descent, or of human decision or a husband's will but born of God." Jesus's life become access to our God. Those who believe are born again and are children of God. We have to choose to believe in God EVERYDAY; this cannot be just a sunday affair.

These few passages where great to hear. Each day has it's own task that need to be completed but I will always remember that God has never left me, and I have never walked alone. He brought me to it and will bring me through it. There will be times when I am unsure about things, pressured for time, sick of studying, but God has a plan for me.